Dealing with Anxiety and writer's block

Hello and welcome to my first blog post!  We artists are an anxious bunch and often allow anxiety to hinder our creativity, which exacerbates our uncertainties.  So this month's blog article is about anxiety and what we can do to move past it.

Anxiety can stop people from doing the thing that they want to do and love
Anxiety has been described as a state where there are physiological changes such as increased blood pressure, worried thoughts and tense feelings (American Psychological Association, n.d.). The term ‘writer’s anxiety’ has been coined by researchers Huerta et al (2017, p 4) when referring to university graduate students experiencing writers’ block and tension when faced with academic writing tasks.  I think this perfectly describes the anxiety that composers feel, whether or not they are scoring to picture. Feelings of inadequacy, the misnomer that you’ve already written your best music, and of course writers’ block can dry up the creative process and stop you from doing the thing that you love.

It’s such a common thing amongst composers.  This is normal but there are some tools you can use to overcome this

1. Sit yourself down in front of your computer or instrument and write something anyway. It may not be as good as the last thing your wrote, but it will be a lot better than nothing.  Just start playing around with riffs, loops, sounds etc and see what you come up with.  John Cage already has the silence thing all sewn up, so we have to look for other ideas.
2. Go with your first impressions. First impressions are important, so listen to the ideas that pop into your head.  The more you do this, the more you will hone this skill.  It may turn out that your first impression wasn’t as good as the next idea that comes along, but more often than not there will be a nugget of inspiration in that initial reaction.
3.  If you’re feeling uninspired, go and do something else and come back later. Creativity doesn’t flow if you’re trying too hard, so give yourself a break and relax, or concentrate on something else for a while.  When you come back, you might find that what you’ve written doesn’t suck as much as you initially thought it did.
4. Would the music benefit from rhythm? Look at the energy levels in the visual; is there any pace to what is happening in the scene?  Create some rhythms and see how they sit. You don’t have to use percussion, you can use repetitive instrumental ostinatos to create rhythm.
5. ​Sometimes the best stuff happens by accident.  I’ve thrown individual stems to one side to make room in my project, and when the playhead happened to scroll across them, I realised that they sounded amazing together, stacked as they were.  So if you’re at least having a go, you’re giving yourself a chance to create something awesome.

You can find some simple tools to overcome anxiety in everyday life, here are some things that I do
Yoga - I love my yoga classes; I really like the moments of total relaxation in between the stretching and strength work.  I find I feel so good after a class, relaxed and ready to face new challenges.

Walking meditation - this one surprised me; I once signed up for meditation classes at the local Buddhist temple.  The session consisted of walking meditation, Tai Chi and then an hour or so of sitting meditation.  For my first session, I walked for 40 minutes around in a rectangle with other people whilst the sun set.  After 20 minutes, I felt this relaxation descend upon me, I had never felt so good walking!  I have used this technique outside of the meditation course when I was feeling anxious, unsettled and having trouble sleeping.  Don't listen to music or podcasts whilst you're doing this; you won't achieve the relaxed state.  Just walk and wait for it to happen.

Floatation therapy - I’m not claustrophobic so I love my sessions in a sensory deprivation tank.  I feel the more time you can be relaxed, it helps to balance out the acute stress anxiety can make you feel. 

Exercise - always a good stress reliever. Find an exercise that you like and fits in with your routine.

If you find that you experience anxiety that gets in the way of your creativity, hopefully there are some tips here that will help you overcome this.  I'd love to hear of you tried any of these and they worked, or if you've got your own coping strategies!  Thanks for reading, I'll have a new topic next month.

References
American Psychological Association (n.d.). Anxiety. Retrieved from http://www.apa.org/topics/anxiety/

Margarita Huerta, Patricia Goodson, Mina Beigi & Dominique Chlup (2017) Graduate students as academic writers: writing anxiety, self-efficacy and emotional intelligence, Higher Education Research & Development, 36:4, 716-729, DOI: 10.1080/07294360.2016.1238881
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